Late Night Mix Up....
Here I am at 10:50 pm and thinking of what the hell to write. Honestly I feel like crap and my boobs feel super swollen. The new bra I have is feeling snug as hell. I am sitting in the living room watching a movie. I am watching Diary of a Mad Black Woman. I love this movie along with the rest of Tyler Perry’s movies and plays. Even though they are all funny at the end of them I always feel some type of relation to the movies. I love the fact that he made all of his dreams come to life.
I have so many dreams that seem like they might be dreams for the rest of my life. I never really got the chance to make them come true just yet, but that does not mean that they will never come true. Just the other day I was watching Catfish. Catfish is a show on MTV and is about people who are living their everyday lives, but are being affected by someone who is pretending to be someone else. Sometimes I feel like my dreams are catfishing me. I know that blogging is something that I want to do for the rest of my life and one day I will find something that I am extremely passionate about to make my topic. For now this blog is a freelance blog to reach out to others who are either going through the same thing or can relate to me. I want to reach out to people. Talk to them and learn their story. I want to be able to do it without them being judged or looked down on because there is someone out there in the world reading their story and crying or can relate to it.
I see all these people in the world who are truly lost or are too intimidated to share their story. I feel like a damn counselor sometimes. I always have the answers for others, but not myself. I guess I find myself through other people. I see a part of me in others. It makes me feel a little vulnerable, but I keep it in and keep a rock hard exterior. Everyone always wants the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow, but they never want to follow the map to the straight to the gold. They want the gold to come to them or they let someone else have it. That is what America is like today. There are so many lazy people who do not want to work what so ever, but they want the rewards of a working man or woman. Average people want above average things, but try to do below average things to get them.
I know this is a very mixed post, but it is real shit and just a bunch of loose thoughts. Don’t expect things out of people for spite or unexplainable reasons.
Take My Word…xoxo
JaLeigha
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