YELLO!

Damn! School, Work, Military, and Boys! Where do I even begin? Well I should probably start off by telling you all what a petty queen I have been. I promise you I probably took the savage award of the the USA. Like, I am all too positive that if I was in a pageant and there were the categories of Petty and Savagery. I would take them both.

So, I am back in school and I am kind of dreading it! I just want to be done. I cannot even believe that I have come so far,and I am so far away. Medical Assisting better be worth it. I have no clue if I want to be an NP or an PA. There are really many pros and cons to both. We will see maybe I will know after becoming a nurse. I should probably just take it slow. No rushing is needed.

I think I am going to say my final goodbyes to the army. Sometimes things are better left unsaid. This is not the case. I love my unit. I adore my new commander and I know that he is going to do amazing things. Even though I am still in my feelings about my old first sergeant, I really like my new one. I just feel that personally I am not the same person. I am seeing new things every drill that just make me want to walk out of those doors. I don't want to, but I really need to stop focusing on what is best for the unit and focus on what is best for me. My unit drains me more than they know. There are so many fake ass people in my platoon I just cannot deal with. Fuck it, they can be as fake as they want to I will still have their backs.

Finally, I broke a heart this month. They will never know how sorry I am because I will never tell them. Things got hot real quick and for that I will apologize just not to them. I have my very own selfish reasons for doing so, but they will one day understand. I have had my heart broken plenty of times, but I cracked my heart trying to break theirs. I know I always say they come and they go, but this time I can't help but to think this person will forever be gone.